October 2010
WatchRadio Protector.
Edit: I’m now at school and able to watch the whole video. And holy crap, I think this has to be one of my favorite videos of a band, ever.
“you can be anybody you want to be, and you can do anything you want to do”
– a dream.
September 2010
Sometimes I hate having to pretend that I like business. “Oh, what are you learning from this project?” “How is this helping you grow in the company?” “Nothing. I’m just regurgitating information onto a spreadsheet.” “It isn’t.”
I wish I could say those. But I smile, because I know at the end of the day, what matters to me is my art, and...
Streetcar
The ability to forgive is going to determine your life. Thinking about this, I’m realizing that there are a lot of situations where it’s hard to forgive. Either the person did something so terrible, or there was never any closure, and as a result, several lingering feelingrs. Sometimes you won’t be able to have any closure. You won’t have an opportunity to ask why, or ask...
Forgiveness Is The Best Catharsis
For a while now I’ve been feeling pretty off. Like something was wrong, but I didn’t really know what. I guess I’m still not even sure, but I’ve realized that honesty really does work out in the end. I could have lied about how I felt, kept it in, and let the ill feeling build. But instead I chose to tell the truth. And I feel a lot better than I have in a while. Maybe it...
Happy Birthday, Dad.
I wish I had answers, and I think that’s the biggest disappointment of all; knowing that I’ll never have one.
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Dream
Sometimes I wonder if this anxiety stems from the inability to be honest with myself about how I feel.
I’m trying to maintain a positive attitude about my life, but it’s so hard whenever I’m in such a negative environment.
I need a catharsis.
If I could just do something to better somebody’s life, even if just one person, then this will all be worth it.
Things I Would Ask If You Were Still Alive
What happened to the Owl license plate cover you used to have?
How long were you in the biker gang for?
Jimi Hendrix or Aerosmith?
Why did you even marry my mom?
What do you think about the things that I’ve done?
Are you mad at me?
Are you religious?
Do you actually love me, or were you just paying me off because you felt guilty?
Why do you talk to Steve when you know what he did?
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Signs
I am a good person.
Today when I woke up it sort of hit me. It was a strange feeling, but it’s a burden I’ve been living with for a while. But I’m only human. Everybody makes mistakes.
For once, I feel pretty functional, other than the fact that I’m dead tired.
Tomorrow’s Dad’s birthday. I dunno if I’ll do anything.
Two ravens in the old oak tree; one...
Sometimes I listen to some really weird-ass shit...
Understanding In A Car Crash
Moments ago I woke from a nap. Immediately, I felt cranky and irritable, but in another sense, I feel refreshed. I realized part of my problem lately with my emotions has been a lack of proper sleep. Juggling school, work, and a social life has taken a toll on that aspect of myself and it’s becoming evident that I simply need to take more down time for myself.
What people say about college...
billionsandbillionsmusic:
“Dr. Suess Influenced”...
I’m coming to the realization that I’ll never be good enough for the two people who matter most. I guess I just have to take this, try to be the best for myself, and the people who are there.
I’m so sorry.
I’m in love with this song. Weightless Frame...
Pulmonary Archery
So I’m sorry I haven’t updated lately. The past couple of weeks have been super busy, and when I have been on the internet, I’ve been stuck leaching my neighbor’s internet from the windowsill, and it’s a pain in butt to type for more than brief moments.
Anyways, this is what’s new.
Had a math test today. Finally got my book. FINALLY HAVE UNLIMITED TEXTING....
A newer version of All Children Make Mistakes. So...
I won't even lie.
I feel so depressed right now.
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